Almost everybody is lost, but their biggest secret is that they are, and all of them are terrified of being found out. It's absolutely possible to find yourself, but absolutely impossible unless you admit - as you have done - that you are lost. Well done. You're already halfway there. All these others suffer from tinnitus, making their ears ring. It comes from living around too much noise and listening non-stop to something called 'music'.
Thanks for comment.
You're welcome. Re-reading your post, I was struck by a familiar question among those interested in Spirituality... You wonder if anything is happening. Are you having a spiritual experience? Can somebody else tell you if you are, or not? Take it from me: if you are, you'll know it. That, after all, is the whole point. Beware of making something that isn't, into something you wish it was. Because that may slam the door shut, and then you'll never know.