Ok but ryan tried to take his life at least twice after this he felt that he would rather die than live with this guilt I feel at that point it was a selfish option and he had no regard for Tara's loved ones , he felt he was at the end and still didn't say anything to anyone
Mental health, depression, anxiety and suicide are not rational. You can’t rationalize irrational thoughts or behavior. Make no mistake, I don’t believe that keeping that secret was the “right” thing to do. Tara did not deserve any of what happened to her. Her family did not deserve the pain they’ve endured. It’s just that when I step back, and look at the story without any preconceived notion of how things SHOULD have transpired that day (and every day after), I can kind of see why things would go the way he said they did.
Agree I lost a very close friend too suicide and had discussions with him previously and he guaranteed to me why he would never do it 😔 but when pushed to certain limits it can trigger the person and they can just snap so I'm not saying at that stage he had to be rational but surviving that ordeal gave him time to reassess his life , his values 15 years is along time to hold this burden I don't know if I 100% agree with his narrative As I don't believe it is the whole truth , but I feel more truth was in his telling than ever came out of bo's mouth